You would be lying if you say you didn't love listing off random facts about yourself. Even if no human ever reads these, it is pretty stress relieving to think about.
1. I have a serious fear of people without teeth. Dentures creep me rightttt out.
2. I love scented hand sanitizers.
3. I have never lived in the same house over a year.
4. I have been teaching myself to sew for about a year now. It's the greatest.
5. I really really want to visit Hawaii.
Monday, April 1, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
experiencing grace first hand
This past Saturday, the 23rd, was one of the most epic days in history for my life. I was an eye witness to the goodness of God and the love He has for His children. This weekend, I saw prayers being answered and joy just excreting from my friends and family. Zack and Chrissy were finally married!!
The wedding was just as perfect as I expected. The chairs were lined up, the dresses all fit, and the flowers were all in place. Hair and makeup finalized, tables set, and photographer all ready to capture the moments. All the stress was being lifted and the mood lightened. Excitement filled the air between the lovebirds and everyone else who had joined in their previous experiences and knew just how special this marriage was going to be.
What had happened before they had entered into their relationship makes the world of difference in this situation...at least in my eyes. I have known Zack for over 12 years now and have shared in his heartaches and cried along side him through the pain of his previous marriage. I watched him be disrespected, underappreciated, abused, ignored and to put it simply, not loved for far too long. This had left him abandoned, alone, and crying out for mercy and understanding. I know that these kinds of things really broke God's heart. He does not like to see his children in such pain. It broke my heart so much and I am sure God hated it.
A crazy custody battle, divorce, and a few tears later, along came Chrissy...all in God's perfect timing. I met Chrissy at some meetings in getting prepared to launch City Hope. We instantly became friends and I loved having her around. Her smile was so natural and she has a sweet demeanor. We had hung out a few times and I always joked about knowing someone that I had in mind for her whenever she breaks up with her current boyfriend (Who is a very close friend of mine, lol).
When I say perfect, I truly mean God's PERFECT timing. I love to tell the story of the first time they had really ever talked. Chrissy and I were standing in the hallway at City Hope chatting and Zack comes over to talk to us. A little small talk about iPads and other stuff and all of a sudden, it was like I didn't even exist. I swear they forgot I was standing there. ;) It was adorable. There were sparks....I'm not even lying. I knew right then and there that the universe had aligned and it was beautiful. Okay, all corniness aside, it really was awesome to experience that. I love love...especially for someone I have seen in pain for so long. The thought of a girl loving him unconditionally and the way a wife should just gave me butterflies. Who better than Chrissy? She is just perfect! I knew that Zack was going to truly treasure her and hold her above all else, too.
Hearing their vowes to each other this weekend just gave me chills and overwhelmed all of us. They were so genuine. Everyone in the room knew that they meant it. They really were vowing those things to each other. I started thinking about how weird life is and about all previous relationships and how they play into our current ones. I realized something very beautiful while they were sharing their first dance. All of the things that their previous significant others didn't like about them is what they absolutely adore about each other. God is just so cool the way he works things out that way. Things that we have maybe had some part in messing up or bad things that have happened to us, He turns for good. Realllllly good. It was a beautiful picture of grace.
Enjoy a few highlights!
Aj and I all ready
Mr. and Mrs. Zachary Lamczyk! EEK!! :D
The wedding was just as perfect as I expected. The chairs were lined up, the dresses all fit, and the flowers were all in place. Hair and makeup finalized, tables set, and photographer all ready to capture the moments. All the stress was being lifted and the mood lightened. Excitement filled the air between the lovebirds and everyone else who had joined in their previous experiences and knew just how special this marriage was going to be.
What had happened before they had entered into their relationship makes the world of difference in this situation...at least in my eyes. I have known Zack for over 12 years now and have shared in his heartaches and cried along side him through the pain of his previous marriage. I watched him be disrespected, underappreciated, abused, ignored and to put it simply, not loved for far too long. This had left him abandoned, alone, and crying out for mercy and understanding. I know that these kinds of things really broke God's heart. He does not like to see his children in such pain. It broke my heart so much and I am sure God hated it.
A crazy custody battle, divorce, and a few tears later, along came Chrissy...all in God's perfect timing. I met Chrissy at some meetings in getting prepared to launch City Hope. We instantly became friends and I loved having her around. Her smile was so natural and she has a sweet demeanor. We had hung out a few times and I always joked about knowing someone that I had in mind for her whenever she breaks up with her current boyfriend (Who is a very close friend of mine, lol).
When I say perfect, I truly mean God's PERFECT timing. I love to tell the story of the first time they had really ever talked. Chrissy and I were standing in the hallway at City Hope chatting and Zack comes over to talk to us. A little small talk about iPads and other stuff and all of a sudden, it was like I didn't even exist. I swear they forgot I was standing there. ;) It was adorable. There were sparks....I'm not even lying. I knew right then and there that the universe had aligned and it was beautiful. Okay, all corniness aside, it really was awesome to experience that. I love love...especially for someone I have seen in pain for so long. The thought of a girl loving him unconditionally and the way a wife should just gave me butterflies. Who better than Chrissy? She is just perfect! I knew that Zack was going to truly treasure her and hold her above all else, too.
Hearing their vowes to each other this weekend just gave me chills and overwhelmed all of us. They were so genuine. Everyone in the room knew that they meant it. They really were vowing those things to each other. I started thinking about how weird life is and about all previous relationships and how they play into our current ones. I realized something very beautiful while they were sharing their first dance. All of the things that their previous significant others didn't like about them is what they absolutely adore about each other. God is just so cool the way he works things out that way. Things that we have maybe had some part in messing up or bad things that have happened to us, He turns for good. Realllllly good. It was a beautiful picture of grace.
Enjoy a few highlights!
My super hott date.
Small Group
This past week has been exceptionally difficult for me (wedding, youth ministry, children's ministry/ marriage, body image, all typical things) and the week totally ended in the most beautiful way. On Sunday, I was able to witness some work that God has been doing in a friend's heart. I love it. More on that later.....And.....Last night I fell in love with God all over again. Passionately, maddening, unexplainable love with my creator. I love moments like that where I just take a step back, or shall I say am FORCED to take a step back and glance at the bigness of God.
Our church just launched small groups last month and I couldn't be happier. Bryce and I are able to be a part of the most awesome small group where people are transparent, genuine, and inquisitive. We discuss real ideas about a real God. I haven't been a part of a small group that I haven't lead or had some part in leading in probably 4 years or so. It is so refreshing to just sit back and fellowship with other Christians and LEARN! I love to learn. Is that weird? ha. Anyway, at small group, we have been doing a brief overview of the entire Bible (WOAH) so that way we can do a more in depth study of specific books in the future. I am just pumped about studying the Bible. Studying God. Learning His character, His stories, His word. Don't get me wrong, I love a good self help book as much as the next person about how to love your husband more or how to be more thankful. Those are seriously great. I am just ecstatic to just study God's word for a while in a group setting.
I have learned some mind blowing things already in just a few weeks. I have been actively present in church for over 10 years now and been in a hundred different small groups and there is still so much to learn. The mind blowing thing for this week is that when the flood happened, the water and so much pressure from it has made a huge impact on the Earth causing it to age. This really provides a giant link between science and creation. Finding out new things about God is fun! I cannot believe I had never heard this before.
We watched this video in small group last night called "Everything is Spiritual" by Rob Bell. He explains so many things and really forces you to stand in awe of God and his giant power. One really cool thing I learned from the video is that our blood has the same percentage of salt that the ocean does, 3.4%. If we had 4% or the ocean had 4%, neither would survive. God is just so intricate! I want to know Him.
This is the video if you have time to watch it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2rklwkm_dQ
Our church just launched small groups last month and I couldn't be happier. Bryce and I are able to be a part of the most awesome small group where people are transparent, genuine, and inquisitive. We discuss real ideas about a real God. I haven't been a part of a small group that I haven't lead or had some part in leading in probably 4 years or so. It is so refreshing to just sit back and fellowship with other Christians and LEARN! I love to learn. Is that weird? ha. Anyway, at small group, we have been doing a brief overview of the entire Bible (WOAH) so that way we can do a more in depth study of specific books in the future. I am just pumped about studying the Bible. Studying God. Learning His character, His stories, His word. Don't get me wrong, I love a good self help book as much as the next person about how to love your husband more or how to be more thankful. Those are seriously great. I am just ecstatic to just study God's word for a while in a group setting.
I have learned some mind blowing things already in just a few weeks. I have been actively present in church for over 10 years now and been in a hundred different small groups and there is still so much to learn. The mind blowing thing for this week is that when the flood happened, the water and so much pressure from it has made a huge impact on the Earth causing it to age. This really provides a giant link between science and creation. Finding out new things about God is fun! I cannot believe I had never heard this before.
We watched this video in small group last night called "Everything is Spiritual" by Rob Bell. He explains so many things and really forces you to stand in awe of God and his giant power. One really cool thing I learned from the video is that our blood has the same percentage of salt that the ocean does, 3.4%. If we had 4% or the ocean had 4%, neither would survive. God is just so intricate! I want to know Him.
This is the video if you have time to watch it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2rklwkm_dQ
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Friendship Transformation
I moved around and changed schools pretty much every year growing up resulting in making new friends and losing touch with the old ones. I learned very early on that to have a sincere friend is a true rarity. When I moved to Pinckneyville in junior high, I met some people that I knew I wanted to keep in my life for good. My wish did come true and I had the same friend group for many years and one girl in particular that was my best friend. It was wonderful to have that one person that I could always count on to eat lunch with and film silly videos together and not be judged.
Of course life has changed quite a bit since high school, but I still really value my friendships from then. They taught me so much and really helped shape me into the person that I am today. God has brought me so many different groups of friends so far in my twenties and it has been really rewarding. I am learning more and more just how precious it is to have friends that will stick by your side for the long haul. Life goes by so fast and different people take part along side you depending on the season of life that you are in. I know that things for me have certainly changed just in how I treat people and how I view friendship. This has been a long process of learning that has brought heartache, swallowing pride, and joy all at the same time. When I reflect on all of these times, it just screams GROWTH to me.
I want to share a little bit about my journey on becoming the best friend I can be to the friends God has gifted me with now. Maybe you can learn from my mistakes! Ha!
1. Don't let jealousy rule your heart.
-When someone has something going good for them and you don't it is so easy to get jealous, but soooo dangerous. A new piece of clothing, losing weight, vacations, etc. A very dangerous path!! When you have a friend that is jealous (or in my case, used to be me) people don't even want to tell you things because you will always act jealous. It is just not cool at all.
2. Be happy for people!
- This one has seriously changed my life!! Recognize that good things happen to you as well! You would want them to be happy for you!
3. Don't turn things around and make them about you!
- When a friend has great news, is getting married, needs to talk about family or relationship problems, one of the worst things you can do is cut them off in their story and tell them about how your life is worse/relatable or use the expression "If it makes you feel any better, I .....". Trust me, that will NOT make them feel better. Learning this has been revolutionary on being a better listener and then being a better friend just comes naturally out of that. Encourage others to talk about themselves as opposed to the other way around.
4. Try your best to make them feel special.
-No need to elaborate on this one....duh? Who doesn't like to feel special? I've been trying this tactic out by sending a simple text here and there and making phone calls just to say hello. Also, hand written cards...AHHH! They rule.
5. Serve them with no expectation of return.
-Because Jesus says to. and it's really exhilarating not to expect the same in return!
6. Support them
-Go to their concerts, plays, encourage and praise their hobbies, and be there to show you genuinely care.
That is all I have for now, but I will say that the old saying of being the kind of friend you would want was never truer.
Of course life has changed quite a bit since high school, but I still really value my friendships from then. They taught me so much and really helped shape me into the person that I am today. God has brought me so many different groups of friends so far in my twenties and it has been really rewarding. I am learning more and more just how precious it is to have friends that will stick by your side for the long haul. Life goes by so fast and different people take part along side you depending on the season of life that you are in. I know that things for me have certainly changed just in how I treat people and how I view friendship. This has been a long process of learning that has brought heartache, swallowing pride, and joy all at the same time. When I reflect on all of these times, it just screams GROWTH to me.
I want to share a little bit about my journey on becoming the best friend I can be to the friends God has gifted me with now. Maybe you can learn from my mistakes! Ha!
1. Don't let jealousy rule your heart.
-When someone has something going good for them and you don't it is so easy to get jealous, but soooo dangerous. A new piece of clothing, losing weight, vacations, etc. A very dangerous path!! When you have a friend that is jealous (or in my case, used to be me) people don't even want to tell you things because you will always act jealous. It is just not cool at all.
2. Be happy for people!
- This one has seriously changed my life!! Recognize that good things happen to you as well! You would want them to be happy for you!
3. Don't turn things around and make them about you!
- When a friend has great news, is getting married, needs to talk about family or relationship problems, one of the worst things you can do is cut them off in their story and tell them about how your life is worse/relatable or use the expression "If it makes you feel any better, I .....". Trust me, that will NOT make them feel better. Learning this has been revolutionary on being a better listener and then being a better friend just comes naturally out of that. Encourage others to talk about themselves as opposed to the other way around.
4. Try your best to make them feel special.
-No need to elaborate on this one....duh? Who doesn't like to feel special? I've been trying this tactic out by sending a simple text here and there and making phone calls just to say hello. Also, hand written cards...AHHH! They rule.
5. Serve them with no expectation of return.
-Because Jesus says to. and it's really exhilarating not to expect the same in return!
6. Support them
-Go to their concerts, plays, encourage and praise their hobbies, and be there to show you genuinely care.
That is all I have for now, but I will say that the old saying of being the kind of friend you would want was never truer.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Sweetheart Fish Kamorrah
So, It appears that I have created a monster with my parenting styles. I have pushed my niece to be so independent that it has came back to bite me in some ways! This passed weekend, I took her to the rec center to swim. That girl absolutely loves the water. I have been trying to put my swim lesson expertise into practice with her at an early age and it is paying off. She loves to jump in the water, put her head under, and swim on her own. Quite the little daredevil, if I do say so myself. I used to dunk her under all the time and tell her I wasn't going to catch her when she jumped in..she could do it herself. Now, she really believes it and scares me half to death. At one point, I put her on the side to have her jump in and she ran over to the other pool and jumped in without anyone near her. Thank goodness my friend Sierra was able to get out of the deep end of the pool a little faster than I was and ran over there to help Kam. Geesh! I will admit I am partial, but she is the smartest, funniest, and sweetest kid I know. I am totally wrapped around her chubby little two-year-old finger. Here are some highlights from this winter.
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| This kid will not let you wash her hair. She HAS to do it, and she actually does a pretty good job! Same with brushing her teeth. So proud! |
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 Here are more art projects. She lives for them! |
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| Here she is serving up tea to her favorite uncle. Have I mentioned I live for tea parties!??? |
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| Here is our swim party on Saturday. She is hanging out with Sierra and her rubber snake here. |
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| She loves to Skype with my hamster Sinnah. She cracks me up as she yells out for her to run on her wheel! |
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| These are just for cute measure. This is perfection. |
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| Aunt Kiki snuggles. |
I thank God everyday for all the joy that she has brought to our family. She is nothing but a blessing.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Resolutions
It's never too late to make some resolutions, right? I love a good self assessment as much as the next person, but I am just getting around to really putting these things I would like to change into practice. Someone once told me that ideas are just dreams until you write them down. So here goes....my resolutions for 2013.
1. Most importantly, grow in the word. Grow in my fruits of the Spirt. Understand the Holy Spirit more. Love Jesus. Be grateful, joyful, and selfless. I have this ugly pride thing that tends to haunt me. It's gross and I hate it. So does God. I am asking to become more aware of that, and oh boy have my prayers been answered. So I guess you can say I am on the road to recovery. Feel free to call me out on it, why don't ya?
2. Have more "Facetime" with my hubby. No, I don't mean video chatting, I mean spending time together without something glowing in our faces and distracting us. We miss out on so much about each other when we bury our noses into our phones. He deserves for me to treasure him above all else..Pinterest comes in a close second, though. ;)
3. Get healthier. Duh? It's a given.
4. Pay off all of our debt so we will be totally debt free (except car that we have 2 years left on)
5. Go on a mission trip with Bryce
6. Participate in a community small group
7. Move into a house and work towards possibly buying a house sometime in the future. (Hopefully a hut in Africa! ;)
8. Disciple our students and grow our youth group.
9. Get organized!
10. Get my craft area set up.
11. Visit more people from my past. Friends, family, everyone. Go visit my hometown more. I see the same people every week because it's easier. I miss all my old friends and family.
Love Wins.
1. Most importantly, grow in the word. Grow in my fruits of the Spirt. Understand the Holy Spirit more. Love Jesus. Be grateful, joyful, and selfless. I have this ugly pride thing that tends to haunt me. It's gross and I hate it. So does God. I am asking to become more aware of that, and oh boy have my prayers been answered. So I guess you can say I am on the road to recovery. Feel free to call me out on it, why don't ya?
2. Have more "Facetime" with my hubby. No, I don't mean video chatting, I mean spending time together without something glowing in our faces and distracting us. We miss out on so much about each other when we bury our noses into our phones. He deserves for me to treasure him above all else..Pinterest comes in a close second, though. ;)
3. Get healthier. Duh? It's a given.
4. Pay off all of our debt so we will be totally debt free (except car that we have 2 years left on)
5. Go on a mission trip with Bryce
6. Participate in a community small group
7. Move into a house and work towards possibly buying a house sometime in the future. (Hopefully a hut in Africa! ;)
8. Disciple our students and grow our youth group.
9. Get organized!
10. Get my craft area set up.
11. Visit more people from my past. Friends, family, everyone. Go visit my hometown more. I see the same people every week because it's easier. I miss all my old friends and family.
Love Wins.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Deserts into gardens
It has been a few months since my last post on any of my blogs. I wanted so badly to write, create, be inspired, and express myself in the ways that I love doing, but just couldn't. I just absolutely couldn't. My head has been swirling around with all sorts of thoughts and it has become so overwhelming that I myself can hardly handle it, let alone trying to explain it to others. God has really been moving in my heart, as usual, and I can feel Him all around me. He has big plans, so of course, there are things I need to work on to allow that to happen.
Some of the newest things that have been going in my life are personal and things going on with other friends. Fortunately and unfortunately at the same time, God has given me a spirit of compassion for the people I care about to deeply feel the things they are feeling. Two of my very closest friends are going through a painful separation that they feel is leading to a divorce. Ahh, the heartbreak. It's just plain awful and I can't stop thinking about them. I also had some serious things happen to my family over the Holidays. My mom had to make the difficult decision to remove my grandpa from life support. It was a very special circumstance that made it even more particularly hard for the family. This has caused me a great deal of anxiety and I have started going back to therapy, which I believe is a great thing. I honestly think that everyone would benefit from having a counselor. They are so helpful, even just with everyday problems! I also have been dealing with a lot of emotions that are not pretty by stuffing them down and being ashamed. This is not right, and it is not helping. I have bitterness in my heart about regrets, people who have wronged me, ministry, and marriage.
Anyway, looking forward I can see light. I can see dawn breaking and God's goodness. I can't get enough of my two favorite Waterdeep songs that can pretty much describe my feelings to a T lately. I know that God has good plans for me, my friends, my marriage, and my spirit.
You have redeemed my soul
From the pit of emptiness
You have redeemed my soul
From death
I was a hungry child
A dried up river
I was a burned out forest
And no one could do anything for me
But You put food in my body
And water in my dried bed
And to my blackened branches
You brought the springtime
Green of new life
And nothing is impossible for You
I love every single line of that song. It just about redemption and all the glory goes to the good One. If it were not for Him, my friend and comforter, I would be so empty, bitter, hard.....ugly.
My heart resonates with David and his writings in Psalms when he cries out for God's presence and saving.
Psalm 141
O Lord, I am calling to you. Please hurry!
Some of the newest things that have been going in my life are personal and things going on with other friends. Fortunately and unfortunately at the same time, God has given me a spirit of compassion for the people I care about to deeply feel the things they are feeling. Two of my very closest friends are going through a painful separation that they feel is leading to a divorce. Ahh, the heartbreak. It's just plain awful and I can't stop thinking about them. I also had some serious things happen to my family over the Holidays. My mom had to make the difficult decision to remove my grandpa from life support. It was a very special circumstance that made it even more particularly hard for the family. This has caused me a great deal of anxiety and I have started going back to therapy, which I believe is a great thing. I honestly think that everyone would benefit from having a counselor. They are so helpful, even just with everyday problems! I also have been dealing with a lot of emotions that are not pretty by stuffing them down and being ashamed. This is not right, and it is not helping. I have bitterness in my heart about regrets, people who have wronged me, ministry, and marriage.
Anyway, looking forward I can see light. I can see dawn breaking and God's goodness. I can't get enough of my two favorite Waterdeep songs that can pretty much describe my feelings to a T lately. I know that God has good plans for me, my friends, my marriage, and my spirit.
You have redeemed my soul
From the pit of emptiness
You have redeemed my soul
From death
I was a hungry child
A dried up river
I was a burned out forest
And no one could do anything for me
But You put food in my body
And water in my dried bed
And to my blackened branches
You brought the springtime
Green of new life
And nothing is impossible for You
I love every single line of that song. It just about redemption and all the glory goes to the good One. If it were not for Him, my friend and comforter, I would be so empty, bitter, hard.....ugly.
My heart resonates with David and his writings in Psalms when he cries out for God's presence and saving.
Psalm 141
O Lord, I am calling to you. Please hurry!
Listen when I cry to you for help!
Accept my prayer as incense offered to you,
and my upraised hands as an evening offering.
Take control of what I say, O Lord,
and guard my lips.
Don’t let me drift toward evil
or take part in acts of wickedness.
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